sorry it's been soooo long.

Well my life in the last 5 months seems to be busier than i could ever imagine. I went back to Continental wking fulltime and finally finished my last months of prerequisites for the nursing program. But now my aunt has been diagnosed with cancer. We were hoping for the best and an easy surgery to fix things but it has spread so I now take her to chemotherapy. I have spent the last few days trying to get help to pay her bills and so hopefully that works out. For a long time little things she did got on my nerves but I think I've been assigned to help her so that i can have compassion and not irritability. It gets hard to go to all the appts and still try'n spend time with my little ones. I hear what the dr.'s explain and I try to hold back the tears because I want to be strong for her. She doesn't understand a whole lot. My medical terminology has helped but like others have said "Nothing can prepare you."

Keai and I have tried to take the kids out to play every so often. of course, he's better at doin that than me. When I am tired, I usually say "sorry kids" but my husband could be ready to fall over and he'll still pick himself up and take the kids for a walk or bicycle ride. I think Heavenly Father for a kids and husband that I can hang on to when I'm going through rough times.