Bye 2011!

5 min to end of 2011 and sitting at wk. Love wking integration desk with my co workers (aka extended family) Miss spending time w/my kids but hopefully they'll have a better future because we're paying our debt down slowly but surely. Grateful for all Heavenly Father's done for me in this year and for all I have. I am very blessed.

Shopping with my kidlets

I am reading "the millionaire next door" and relearning. I was so tired this morning from an 11hr shift that I slept til early afternoon when Lita's nurse (Suzie) called to let us know that she was coming over. Lita laughed at some comment Suzie made. It was good to see Lita laugh. She doesnt do that as often. When I said the words "it's good to see her laugh" I almost cried. Lita is one tough woman. she's been through a million dr. visits, and cant understand a lot but she does what the doctor's ask. Grandma's been a big help. She 's up with Lita at night, cooks for her, and makes sure Lita gets her needed meds.

Once the nurse left, my kids were wanting to go somewhere so I dragged them with me on our usual shopping bonding trips. To me they're bonding because I am exhausted most days.
Today re realized from my book that I am teaching them that material things bring happiness. Goal for the next 3 days is not to shop with them. I want to have financial freedom and every little bit counts for our future.

We had a great Christmas. They each received 2 gifts but were appreciative of each one. Zerin loves her ukulele. Kale's actually reading with her Kindle, and steven's was outside the day after Christmas flying his remote helicopter with his dad. Not a lot but we have something. Thankful for what we do have and that my kids have a safe and happy environment to grow up in.

Millionaire Next Door

Listened to this book about 3yrs ago. Finally got a written copy......gosh Aha moments all over the place. "He owns a lot of upscale things, yet he works so hard for so many hours during the day that he has no time to enjoy them. He has no time for his family, either. His life is appealing to many. If these people really understood his inner workings, they would see that he is possessed by his possessions. He works for things. He sacrifices to impress others" Last night I took off work 5hrs early so I could be up this morning with my kids. It was worth every minute.

bookstore

Took my Veni to bookstore. He loved it. I was so excited with all the new books that I thought my girls would love it too.....wrong. We go there with all 3 of them and none of them want to read. They're just busy with their money looking for something to buy.

Veni and I read "if you give a dog a doughnut, If you give a cat a cupcake and if you take a mouse to school." Glad he liked those. Next time I have to go by myself for some me time.

work work work

I can't get back into the swing of pickin up a million hrs like I used to. Christmas is right around the corner and here I sit still tryn to force myself to go in early. My sis gave me an early gift though. I usually take gma and go shopping and when we get home it's usually me and my son or me and myself lugging it all in. By the time I woke up my sis and her husband had already taken gma shopping and brought it all in. Hoorah!! what a relief. Less on my shoulders. Sometimes feel like there isnt enough time in the world to do all I need to do....cook, clean, more cleaning, homewk w/kids, shopping, not enough sleep, work, work, work. Hoi. I did get an hr of me time today and didnt know what to do with it.........oh yeah shooooping! then i walk into the store feeling guilty about spending money so I only bought 2 things and returned home. anything less than $80 for me is an accomplishment.

homework w/the kidlets

Did a book report w/ my 2nd oldest today. She amazes me how independent she is. she had a book report due. She did all of the 1st and 2nd draft on her own and then i just had to help her out with sentence structure and punctuation. It took me this long to do well in english from college and here she is well on her way.

I love my grandma. I am just waking up in the afternoon because of my nighttime shift and i hear her doin dishes in the kitchen. I remember waking up as a child when i used to sleep with her and hearing her in the kitchen. I dont know what I'll ever do without her. I've had to go to tons of appts w/my aunt for cancer and she's been with her every step of the way and when I have to leave she'll watch out for my kids.

My bestess friend

Cant believe how funny I think my husband still is after all these years. A lot of times I dont believe him when he compliments me but the other day he says "If I had your looks, I'd would have had 100's ". He lets me sleep when he's off and he knows I've wkd all night, he's cooks when he's off, and he calls my gma, gma too. what else could I ask for?

Tonight we took the kids to a trunk or treat at the ward. We were both feeling sick but it's for the kids so we forget our selves and go. what a fun time we all had. we had activities in the gym for about an hour. they played games like musical chairs and after we laughed at the kids they asked for the moms and dads to get up and join. i just sat there as i am used to when my 2 girls pull me up. they're gettin bigger and stronger than i realize sometimes. i find myself standing at a circle of chairs and no other parents come out. my sis in law paki is just laughing at me. i found myself walking off after the 1st round.

then took the kids outside. the weather was great. so many kids and so much candy. we took keai's little car cuz my car trunk will not stay open. i had bought some lights that make halloween sounds and blink and it was well worth the money. Veni was a vampire. Kale's a vampire (her favorite every yr now for 3 yrs) and Zerin's a nerd.

Drove home, the kids are sugared up, i get to hold my Keai's hand and we're all happy :)


Veni sits by my side and watches tv as I try to catch up on lost sleep from working overnight. when i finally wake he's promising me again that he'll buy me a house. then he says "a gingerbread house". then I ask "can you buy it today?" he replies "no i dont have a job". while i was asleep he keeps waking me to scare me with his fake vampire teeth. what a joy lol.