Bikram yoga experience

this past Tuesday I started hot yoga. couldnt believe how much I sweat. the class was 90min but I think about an hr into it, my head was throbbing and I was getting nauseous. there were a couple of fit women there that I tried to pix myself as to motivate myself. the funny thing was that even they were losing their balance. after class I went to the changing room and sat in the bathroom. i threw up! i have never thrown up from wking out til today. then Wed I had to go back. i pix that the people there might be saying "she'll never come back". that 2nd day the class was great. felt energized and positive during and after class. what I noticed is that I had plenty of water the night before and I had some fruit /spinach smoothie the morning of. the 3rd day I was driving to the yoga class thinking "i dont feel so good (dizzy)" but I thought that once I get in there I ail be fine. sat down in the class and 1st thought was "why is it so hot today". I should've walked out but I stuck in there again. a lot of friendly classmates and workers like Debbie ( a tiny lady at the front desk). 4th day I skipped and went to my local gym and did the elliptical. felt great. did some weight lifting. later on I even did some yoga at home. guess I will still have my good and bad days of wkingout. just nn to remember to take some powerade before yoga since it makes me sweat so much. i have been drinking tons of water. today i reached 16cups (128oz). i can tell my body is holding onto more water weight since it is getting used to the yoga classes w/tons of sweat. i have made a goal to try new classes so that my body doesnt adjust to one excercise and defeat the purpose. I have worked out 4 out of 5days so far this week. yay!!!

A Lesson Learned

Keai did a job for a guy that is related to me. It's been almost 2 months now and still no money. He told Keai he would pay him payments since he under bid by $3000. He owed Keai about $1200 Then he calls a few days after the first job to say he wanted Keai to do another job w/o being paid from the 1st job. We both said hell no. almost 2 mos have passed and he never came by w/even $20. so i took Keai's ph and texted him 2 weeks ago and said "its Hakeai. is there any way you can bring some money by this weekend?" I used Keai's ph bcuz Keai said to stay out of it but I couldnt sleep at night hating this guy for what he did to us. He never answered that text. I still couldnt get this anger out and then he wasnt answering the text so I was even more mad. then this past weekend I texted him from my own phone and said " my husband is too embarrassed to ask you but he really needs money to try n get his mom here before anything happens to gma Sena" not even 2 min later he replies that he will come by in a few days. I was so excited that I told Keai that he finally responded. Keai was mad that I was still asking the guy and interfering and plus embarrassed when he shouldnt be. it's money he worked for. Keai said " u believe this guy when he never made any effort to pay me in the first place. he's never gonna show up. just leave it alone" Then on the night of Keai's bday i am sleeping for work and Keai was at school. my kids wake me up to say there's a guy from church at the door. i walk down still half asleep and dont recognize him til he starts to talk. i just started balling bcuz i held all this anger and here he was at my door. i hugged him and he held out $200.. he was so nervous he went on for about 10 min saying how sorry he was and how everything was messed up at that job and that he had made an honest mistake but the owner of the house would pay him the extra $$. needless to say I can finally sleep at night. even if he doesnt ever show up again at least he made an honest effort. on top of this Keai comes home from school at 830pm and Zerin hands him the money. Keai's face lights up and we tell him what happened. Keai then turns to Zerin and says "give this to mom to help pay the bills" and hands her the whole $200. way to teach mommy a lesson in letting things go and forgiving others.

Veni's arm

I was 1/2 asleep when my mom's voice is yelling for me to run the the school cuz my son was hurt. I stumble out the door as I am trying to reach a nearby clinic to see if they'll take him. they tell me if its a broken bone it's better for us to run to Primary Children's. I walk quickly into the school expecting to hear his screams of pain but I hear nothing. A volunteer there finds me and walks me into the nurses room. there he is not a tear on his face and a creative sling of fabric with his arm inside of a thick magazine. they all say he's so brave. I run him up to the hospital. 20 min later Keai walks in. he couldnt concentrate on his work so he ran home to change and then up to meet us. then I remember I havent had more than 3hrs of sleep. he says he already thought of that and how I wouldnt be a happy camper. they took Veni to xray and Keai tells me to go sleep in his car. I am outside for 10 min when I know I cant sleep and walk back into the room. there about 7 dr and nurses there to help him fall asleep and then straighten his arm. before I know it, it's fixed and we are going home. his sisters are angry and say they'll find the little girl that hurt him. lol.

grandma Ika

Grandma's been with Sola for over a year now. in the last month she her health seemed to declined suddenly. the last time she came to my house she was complaining that one of her hands couldnt grip anything. then about a month later she cant use either hand and her legs couldnt hold her up. they finally got her to the hospital to find out that she had a pinched nerve in her neck bone. had to have been the most anxious few days of my life. the Dr said that there was a chance that she might not make it through the surgery. I couldnt sleep. cried on my husband's shoulder at night. my kids were probably so confused. i couldnt explain to them how serious the surgery was for fear that they'd feel my worry and stress out with me. i want them to be kids, to be carefree. The night before the surgery I was at home and couldnt get myself to go to the hospital again bcuz I didnt want to cry in front of gma. my husband came into our room to find me crying. then he tells me "you should go. take your brother and go". i go down to the bottom of the stairs and couldnt stop crying. i turned to go outside before I walked into his room. As I stepped outside my mom pulls up. she probably thought something bad had happened. so she tells me to wait for Walter. 5 min later, Veni, walt, mom and I are in the van and on the way to the hospital. it was already passed 11pm but there we were walking into the hospital. grandma had just finished visiting with Ofa and his kids. being there I felt comforted. no more tears. just held onto grandma's hand. when we left she said "alu pe koe. teu sai pe au ia". the next day I watched the clock from home with my kids and husband as I knew if I stayed at the hospital there wasnt a lot I could do. finally saw a post that gma made it through the surgery alright. words cant express how relieved I was and how thankful I was to Heavenly Father for helping her and us. There was a little part of me that felt sad bcuz I know that her journey ahead with rehab will not be easy. After stay at the hospital they transferred her to a rehab center to help her get back some of her strength.

Now it's a real emergency and Laine's baptism

many weeks I am debating if I can use our savings for what I think is an emergency. last week I bought a steamer to clean our tile. that went well, but then I tried to be supermom and turned off the frigerator to clean it. about 2 hrs later keai asks so are you still going to clean the frigerator. I was doing other things and forgot to turn it back on. ever since then it hasnt worked the same and finally it died on us. so now it's a real emergency and I dont want to drain all our savings. My husband and I went to Home Depot, their service guy sucked! then ended up at RC Willey. my husband notices one of my cousins (Alona) and he then takes us up to the refrigerators. the salesman that helped us there was great and Alona got us a great deal. family discount...who even knew that was a real thing. we then went home and spent about 4 hrs trying to get it into the kitchen with the help of uncle Sai and then Keai working effortlessly up in the hot roof to hook up a water line. now my kids and I are spoiled having water and ice ready to go whenever we need it out of the frigerator. I was so impressed with Keai and his maneuvers to get the job done. My niece Laine was also baptized last Sat 9/7/2013. her mom asked for Line to do the talk on baptism and me to do the talk on the Holy Ghost. Luisa Iongi did primary songs with us while we waited for Laine to chnge. Her dad Eliesa had baptized her and given her a blessing. Laine looked so adorable and was able to recite her articles of faith for us. her gpa and gma camd from Tonga and her uncle and aunt from Florida to witness her special day. at the end my kids had told me that that day was also Metiline's bday so we took her a pink skateboard as her gift. then as Nia is always thoughtful she took all 3 of my kids swimming to celebrate. Keai and I havent been kidless in who knows how long. thanks my favorite Nia!

Picking Myself Up

Had an argument with my husband yesterday. Usually this type of day will have me wanting to quit doing better on my eating and exercising....not today. so proud to say that I couldnt even force myself to eat chips when I was angry. then i woke up this morning on 5hrs sleep and went to gym. by the time i was done sweat was pouring from my neck to my kete. we even had brownies in the house. it wasnt even a 2nd thought for me to walk past them and not touch. it doesnt sound good to me. some people may hate to sweat but when I workout and sweat drips from my face i feel exhilarated and so happy to know my body is burning unwanted fat. ran home just so my husband could see how drenched my clothes were. on top of all this I come home and my husband's outside mowing so I went to help. 800 cal burned at gym. another 250 cal burned mowing the lawn. total 1050 cal burned today!!

Zerin's been collecting change from wherever she can find it. I took her to the bank. love to see my kids determined on a goal that helps themselves and their parents and work towards accomplishing it. Keai was off this whole week. he took my son swimming, took us to the movies (Pacific Rim...humans vs aliens), and he was able to take a nap when he wanted to. we didnt get to fly anywhere but we were happy.

burned 3680 C for this week!!!

well i got on the scale. couldnt help wondering if lost anything...NOT! sucks but I impressed myself and hit the gym at 5p but didnt get home til 730pm. fought neg thoughts during my wkout bcuz I wanted to hit 1250C today....and I DID IT!! My husband didnt want to go with me and the old me would've used that as my way out of wking out. The me, now, has to put it in or I know I will not feel good about myself. I really am chasing a high when I go of good hormones. my reward at the end is being able to relax in the dry sauna and then coming home to a great shower or bath. I know it's daddys day tmrw but I am glad I was able to have some time to myself. I am gonna sleep good tonight!! way to go TEAM SELF!!! hehehe

1000 Calories!

I hit 1000 Cal in one workout this past Mon and yesterday!! chee hoo !! feeling a lot better as far as confidence. have to keep winning that voice in my head that says "this is too hard" or "i wanna get off this machine". replace it with "i love feeling good" "I can do more than I think" and especially visualizing what I am wking twrds helps me tons. Its been about 8 yrs since I have worked out this much. that is way too long overdue but the good thing is I am wking on it and not procrastinating more. NOT PERFECTION BUT PERSISTENCE

Daddy's day

For mothers day my husband gave me money and I thought that was it and I was fine. then he shows up with a gift card for a massage at Sego Lily!! wow was so excited. i asked Elizabeth Leakehe to go with me. we shared a room and didnt know what we were in for, but I couldnt help but being happy that day bcuz of the pampered feel they gave us. so for this father's day i wanted to do something special for my man. I decided to get him a new stereo in his car. I told him i was going to run errands. when i came back i pulled into the driveway and called him from my phone. I asked him to come outside bcuz someone had broke into his car. he sounded upset and came outside. i was holding his old system. i told him someone broke in....and put a new sound system in! he was so happy. then he ended up taking care of his car and fixn it up for 2 days after that hehehe. so grateful for my husband and all he has done for me, my kids and my family. one of the most happiest, content, patient men I know and have in my life.

Veni also lost his 2nd front top tooth this past week.

He was also sick so we ended up at a clinic. he had an ear infection and strep. glad we had the help we needed to get him better. the only thing that sucked is we spent about 2 hrs there in the waiting room and then in the patients room. Veni was so tired and drained he ended up passed out when the Dr finally came in.

My baby girl Zerin went on a camp by herself to Mill Hollow. seems like she liked it. at first i was hesitant to let her go but her dad thought it'd be a good experience. glad she did get to go. makes it easier on me if she has to leave again without me. she's pretty mature and independent. :) GYM I have been pretty good at going to the gym 4 days each week for the past 3 weeks. my gold is 5 days next week. My back is gonna look like this hehehehe....no really

Pay attention to me!

Keai came home tired and trying to relax in front of the TV. Veni (5 yr old son) keeps saying "let's go outside and play football". Tired of my son repeating what his dad doesn't really hear, I say "Please play with Veni. He's been waiting for you all day to play with him." Before I am done saying another thing my husband doesn't hear, Veni throws that ball and hits his dad straight on the side of the head. Way to get your dad's attention son!!

I LOVE EXCERCISE!

never thought I'd say it but I realllly luv to excercise. i have to focus on the good hormones that kick in when I do excercise. watched a weightloss show and the trainer says "this is the voice that you will have to fight everday" I hear that voice tellin me "its too hard" when i start on the eliptical so I have to make my voice louder that I can do this, I deserve to be happy, I deserve to be healthy and I deserve to be my ideal weight. it doesnt matter when I reach my weightloss goal....I will reach it. it is attainable. stay grateful, pix how you want your life and day to be, and take action! -quote from my favorite Tony Robbins. I found a pix of a toned and fit back of a lady and put it on my phone so I can have it up as I wkout. visualization is so helpful for me to rewire my mind. I now can feel that feeling I had long ago when I first excercised as a 29yr old where I am doing this for myself. the above is my shot of my eliptical as i had just surpassed the max 59min and was on cool down approaching 800 Cal. then I get on a bike for another 14min and hit total 830Cal.

i shall overcome...I have overcome, and will continue to overcome

Yesterday morning awoke to an argument with my husband. I tried to not feel down on myself. we went to the gym I hit 800 Cal for the first time!! i was feeling good til about an hr after getting home. I ended up shopping to try to find that temporary happiness but it was no use. Thank goodness for my children's needs that I can look after so I am not enveloped in my inaccurate thoughts of my life. In the evening I finally told my husband what a bad day I had. I was in a better place by then bcuz I was glad that he listened. Today was a whole new day. I went to the gym again. 830 Calories!! felt so proud of myself and so exhausted. yet i found the strength to clean and cook. the kids were good about helping with the cleaning part. Vinny's been over. i get upset when my son argues or tries to boss him around. sometimes Vinny stands up to him lol. I want to split them apart or punish them many times but my husband reminds me that they are kids and they will argue and resolve their own problems. Vinny went to go home with his home putting on his pouty face and it got both me and my husband trying to comfort him. hopefully as time goes on my kids and their cousins will look out for one another. there will be good days and bad days btwn my husband and me but hopefully a whole lot more good days. he came home exhausted from wking his day job and then iate afterwards. grateful that I am blessed with such a man.

Graduation time

It that's time of the year where u see all the different types of lei's people come up with. went to Seini's graduation (oldest daughter of Lote and Kena). so happy for her. her mom and sister's were up in the bleachers showing how loud and happy they were. made me think of Lote back in high school...so fun. as we r waiting there is a child's name called and one mom stands up screaming at the top of her lungs for her daughter. then she sits down and it is quiet. Kale is sitting next to me and say loudly "well that's embarrassing!" I am thinking "what the? i better scoot away cuz ur embarrassing me". this girl is to funny, no shame. Kale and Zerin had their first volleyball practice with Nia. so thankful she's up for teaching them.

my little initias

The girls in our primary had to do an Indian nbr. i spent a couple of days making outfits. the girls looked great. I was so amazed at how well they knew their dance.

gym for my 600 cal

was so excited when i awoke to get to the gym but one thing came up after another. finally around 2pm I got myself in my car to go. started with weights for upper body. sweated through that and it was feelin great. then I get on the eliptical and was so hard. I was waiting for the negative voice in my head to give up and be quiet. pushed myself thru til I hit 500Cal. couldnt feel my feel by then so i got off and did some situps. finally, I was feeling a little better and got back on to hit my 600!! yay!! i didnt feel like i sweat as much as i normally do til i get in the sauna. this old man had sprayed the whole room with a hose and it was piping hot. I couldnt stay in my whole 10min., but gosh did that make up the for nonsweating feeling I had. i was dripping. i went back for a few min but by the time i came out, I was lightheaded. came home to wking on the grass with keai. never thought I'd say this but it is relaxing to be outside doing gardening or wking on our fence. for dinner we ate ice cream and cake. how healthy lol.

didnt feel like wking out...

...then i come into gym n burned 600Cal. way to impress myself-build my self esteem cheehoo!!

updates

Veni's now done with Kindergarten and looking fwd to having all the kids in school fulltime. Kale's gonna be a 6th grader and Zerin a 5th grader this upcoming fall. Been feeling a lot better. more self esteem and confidence going to gym for the past 3 weeks. now i wake up looking fwd to the good feelins I get when I exercise. nothing like it! When I miss it feels like my day doesnt go as well. Went part time at work but already seeing finances drop so waiting on them to approve me back to full-time Hoi. Keai mom was a little sick so need to have Keai call her again. Steven went on a fieldtrip (he's 5) and he had asked me to go but all the parents filled up the spots avail. Veni still asked me to come so I drove all the way up to Hogle Zoo and walked 1/2 a mile to see him and his class at the backgate. I was waiting to see his suprised "I am happy to my mom" look but he instead saw me and ran and hid. He was embarrassed! dang dont he know I just spent $12 to get in. made me wanna go home already. he's way too young to already be embarrassed. toni ke pa'i. hehehe